Monday, June 18, 2012


Here's a secret...I don't handle disappointment very well. Especially when it relates to my children.

It tends to throw me into a funk. It makes me want to quit everything. I tend to gain weight, waste money, and let my house go...when something big hits me. Or something little and trivial, really, if it's something that means a lot to one or more of my kids.

And that's what has happened. I don't feel like going into details, but why I can't just pick myself back up and move on? I don't know. And the kids may handle it better than me, but in my heart I know (or believe anyway), that their hearts are broken and it just kills me.

I know that I should deal with it better, to model for my children how life's not fair--and that's okay. I know we could have worse problems. I know, for the most part, things are going well. But it's one little (big) thing that is a sticking point, that just gets me down. And it's just one kid this time--just the boy. My little guy. My little 6 year old, curly headed, funny, smart sweetheart. It's heartbreaking for him, and I am having a hard time letting it go.

I am praying that God will give me a sense of peace about this thing. So I can move on, and not let a dark cloud hover over the summer. But I feel like it won't get better, and I really have to struggle to not be bitter about it. And not obsess about it. So I'm praying for peace in this disappointment.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

School's..........out, for summer...

And it's 61 degrees. And rainy. Fab.

Here, in Indiana, we had 85 degree days in March, and over Memorial Day weekend, it reached into the mid-nineties. But now that it's June, and school's out, and all the kids want to's raining.

So we will march on, making our summer list, awaiting nicer, warmer, sunnier weather. Maybe we'll stay in and clean house. Oh, the kids would love that. Haha. Mean mom!

Henry's baseball game may get rained out tonight, and the first swim team practice of the summer may get cancelled due to cold--but our house will sparkle! What a fun mom I am.


So here it is. And you can tell it's the last day of school, too.

There are piles...and I'm not exaggerating...PILES of papers, art projects, worn out folders, broken down crayons, and dried up highlighters---littering our living room floor. The place where the kids come in the door and plop it all down. It's summer again. :-)

Friday, June 1, 2012

June 1 Already

SO I've been remiss. again. in blogging. and here it is June.

The kids have just 2 more days of school--Monday and Tuesday--til they are out til mid-August. I love summer break. at least until they start arguing.

And then there will be a 7th grader, a 4th grader, a 2nd grader and a....? I don't know what yet--grader in the house. Bea has a September birthday, which is bad in Indiana, where the cut off is early.

But I want her to start kindergarten this fall, anyway, despite her not turning 5 til mid-September. that would be okay, right? she wouldn't be scarred for life, would she? she wants to go to the big kids' school, she'll be fine, I'm sure.

Hopefully. So we'll see how the summer goes.

Today she read her first "Bob" book. Mostly read it, with a little help from me. She found it hysterical when Mat sat on Sam. And Sam sat on Mat. We'll keep working on it and see how the summer goes.

I know I'm not the only one who thinks, this will be the best summer ever!, every summer. because I do. I know, cheesy. but I hold out hope, every year. and it isn't usually, or maybe it is. but they go by so quickly.

This weekend I want to make our family's 2012 Summer List. It won't probably be as cute as some I've seen on pinterest, but it will be our summer list. And hopefully, just maybe, we'll get it all done. and before the first or second week of August, when I typically realize summer's almost over and scramble to get it all finished. :-)

So we'll see how it goes. I plan to blog more, for sure, not because it's on any list anywhere, but just because I want to. So we'll see how that goes too.

Happy June!